AHHHH. I feel as if I want to scream but I cant. & when I try to nothing comes out. I am trapped in a place I do not belong. I am stuck with those around me I do not care for. When can I just get going on my life? When I be concerned for my future without being considered selfish. It is MY life. Is this where I am suppose to be…actually I dont even think I believe in that “suppose to” bullshit. I am where I want to be, but I dont want to be here. I dont want to be this right now-stuck in a world that I am constantly trying to catch my breathe or reach up for air. The very air that is suppose to keep me sane. I feel as if this is “suppose to” teach me a lesson-but is that what I truly believe? that I do no know.
I would do anything to just be in a place where I feel loved, wanted, excepted. I want to feel heard-not just listened too. I want to feel secure not just safe. I would do anything to have that right now.
ROLLERBLADING!
I am headed home today!! I am pretty excited to get back & then drive up to Grand Forks :) Its been an unbelievable trip! V.I is soo beautiful & warm & sunny! it is the perfect caribean destination! I would recommand that everyone come here atleast once in your life!! The water is soo blue-straight out of a dream!
Ill come back here with my man someday for sure! But for now I am happy to come home :)
Yesterday was the sunniest and hottiest day of the trip so far. I burnt myself on the shoulders and my knee caps. It was a lot of fun snorkeling-the fishies were sooo pretty! that was my favorite part for sure! especially the rainbow fish!!! Today is our last full day, and I am ready to come home. I miss my life-meaning my man. & I am getting really sick of my family (besides WIll)
RIP Denny.
We went to St. Johns yesterday all day. we got there by the ferry boat and learned some history about the islands!! it was pretty sweet to be on the boat in the Caribbean sea!! We went past the 8th largest yacht in the world, and omg was it HUGE I couldnt imagine what that would be like to have all that money!!! When we got to st johns we took a taxi to Trunk Bay which is in the top 10 beaches in the world! It was absolutley beautiful. It was like straight out of a dream! I loved it. and then we walked around st johns and shopped of course!! It is such a cute island! today it looks like its going to be sunny here in Cruz Bay St Thomas! im ready for another day of laying out :)
I get to see my boo in 5 days! I cant wait.
