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WHEN PEOPLE TALK SHIT ABOUT ME

Fri, 17 May 2013 10:27:49 -0400

A FEW YEARS AGO:

NOW:

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The end of Freshman year

Tue, 07 May 2013 17:18:07 -0400

Wow. It is a week from the end of my freshman year. And I look back on how much things have changed, and yet they have stayed the same. Lets start with the things that have changed..

I am curly at all times now. This is a huge step for me because it shows I am starting to feel more comfortable with myself. I am stronger, and my beliefs are just as strong. I dont really know what I mean by that, but yeah. I guess it shows that I am growing into my own, which is a good thing. I am starting to not be that shy girl who is self conscious about herself. Given, I do have my slip ups every now and again. WIth the curly hair has come with the gift that I do not give a flying fuck what others think of me. I have become even more independent that I was before. I am capable of keeping myself occupied without feeling a need for a friend to hold my hand along the way. (I would choose Ty being there at all times if I could tho hehe..that doesnt count tho)

Hmm..ooh another difference. Hockey is no longer apart of my life like it was before. It is kind of upsetting in a way, but it had to happen eventually. It just wasnt what I wanted to do for the next 3 years now. I am glad that I tried it out for a season, proving I can play college hockey. I am disappointed that it had to end of such negative terms, I wish I could of had a different coach. He was probably the biggest ass I have ever met in my whole entire life. It jsut wasnt what I was suppose to be doing. I know I will have more time to do actual college things and what not. So it all worked out for the better.

I think back to the beginning of the year, and starting college is one of the most intimidating and scaring things I have ever done. But I am proud of myself for getting through everything. It was a successful year for me. I stayed true to my values, and who I am. I have changed in positive ways I know that. I am proud of myself that I stayed focused on my classes and didnt stray away from doing the right things. In some way I have stayed the same person, just improved in some ways. I am still openminded, stubborn, opinionated, determinded, and hard working as ever. I have a goal in mind to finish school on time (or early) in my marketing major. Many people say that will change, but idk what else I would major in. So theres that.

Another important thing that has stayed the same, and grown even stronger is my relationship with Ty. He is my best friend, and I couldnt have gone through this year without his support and laughter. He truly does make me a better person, and I am so incredibly lucky to have such a wonderful man has my boyfriend. He loves me for who I am, even when I am being a little shit. I have a lot of gratitude for him. Going through this year I know we can get through anything. Our future together is bright, and I cant wait for the days with him to continue forever.

I cant wait to what I am like this time next year.

xoxo

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Don’t get excited for something until it is actually happening!

aestheticaspirations: Matthew 6:34 (NIV): “Therefore do not...

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aestheticaspirations:

Matthew 6:34 (NIV): “Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”

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Fri, 05 Apr 2013 10:57:04 -0400

Vent vent vent vent vent

Thu, 04 Apr 2013 23:56:26 -0400

Sometimes I try to think of phrases and words that could possibly explain how I feel throughout the day, like my head is always trying to brainstorm my thoughts and feelings into words. I do this just about all day, my mind constantly trying to have conversations with itself. It never turns off—

until right now. I cant put together any words that I feel could make a clear description of the frightfulness in my mind and the terror/anxiety I feel in my heart. My head is pounding in raw emotions, and my eyes red of hurt.

I want you to know that I only get upset because I care, and the idea of something happening when on that bike is horrible. It would absolutely destroy every part of me. Like the parts of me to give and receive any sort of love would be gone, my trust and faith would disappear. I would slowly start to die on the inside if something happened to you on that bike. I would never forgive myself, for not insisting that you do not buy that bike. I cant have that risk hanging around us.

I want to be able to grow old, and look back on this beautiful life we have created with you, I cant do this alone. I wont do this alone. The bike could end any chance of happiness that is possible.

I fear that you will turn into somebody you aren’t, I know I can trust you and put my heart in your hands, and you wouldn’t do anything to hurt me. I don’t want to hold you back on your dreams, but I would hope you have dreams bigger then a bike, dreams that are only attainable with the help of your life partner and best friend, because I know I cant live my dreams without your love and support standing right next to me.

Please understand where I am coming from, when I say no to a motorcycle. i am only doing it because there is so much more we have yet to live and accomplish in this life. I want to do this right, the chances of owning a bike are not in favor. I am sorry that I feel this way but this is the choice you have made when you began this partnership with me almost 2 years ago. I love you with all my hear, and I couldn’t live a day without you. I want to be able to travel and do amazing venturous things with you. Dont throw it away on something you “want” right now. We have forever together. Let us have forever together.

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vaca

Fri, 22 Mar 2013 00:30:16 -0400

vacation has been wonderful so far. day 4 tomorrow, we are going to an island to hang out all day!! yay it will be fun

ps never am i going on vaca without my boo, it is way to hard and not nearly as fun without my second half & best friend

"why does missing you have to be so damn hard!"

Wed, 20 Mar 2013 23:54:09 -0400

“why does missing you have to be so damn hard!”

"If he laughs at the same ridiculous things as you do, then he is your soul mate without a doubt"

Sun, 17 Mar 2013 17:53:50 -0400

“If he laughs at the same ridiculous things as you do, then he is your soul mate without a doubt”